Let me set a disclaimer right up front. Sometimes I'm a bit ridiculous. This post might seem a bit ridiculous. But that's God. :) He knows I'm entertained by ridiculousness and shows me little lessons through my ridiculousness. SO humor me. :)
TEBOWMANIA. TEBOWING. THE CHOSEN ONE.
I jumped on the bandwagon a little late. The first time I heard/saw anything on Tim Tebow was when I was at Lifeway Christian book store. I kept seeing this book on the shelf . He was obviously some upcoming football star given the glare thingys under his eyes (what are those darn things called anyway!?) I didn't understand. WHAT IS WITH THIS TIM TEBOW!? Every time I went in the store, there was the book STARING at me, GLARING at me. Finally one day I picked it up to give it a look (I mean, I felt like the book was stalking me! I needed to give it some attention I suppose!). Got a bit of his story and went on my way.
This was about the same time as the trade between the Broncos and Jets was occurring. TEBOW WAS EVERYWHERE. In the news, on the twitter, on the facebook, in the magazines. It's then when I started putting my CIA investigator hat on, and did some real research into this kid. He was genuine, he had a massive heart for Jesus and was not ashamed to proclaim it and shout it from the mountain tops! He loves his mom and family, is silly, and his character is unreal. The most attractive thing however is that he loved Jesus. (I know, I know, let the ridiculousness begin!)
After watching interviews and other snipits of footage of this "Tim Tebow" I won't lie...a bit of a crush started to occur. (Extra Ridiculous)
It was then that I sensed a ridiculous change occurring in my life. I wanted to have a closer relationship with God, because I saw it in Tim. He inspired me. He's a leader, a leader I wanted to lead me. When I was starting to take a turn down a road I shouldn't, I thought, well that wouldn't be attractive to Tim. I wanted to store more scripture in my heart, thinking, well the girl Tim will eventually end up with will be able to lift him up in his times of distress, comfort him, and encourage him. I wanted to be that for him! (Ridiculosity {is that even a word}is off the meter by now!) I found myself drawing closer to God, because of this guy.
I'm not embarrassed of this happening. It showed me something, and taught me something very real.
These are the things I need to seek and that should be present in my husband, the man I will spend the rest of my life with, spend the rest of my life serving our God with, growing with, and loving.
My husband needs to be a leader. One that encourages and doesn't make me stumble. One that has the same boundaries I do before we are married. Will help me stay pure. I've learned that I can start preparing myself to be the wife the Lord has called me to be. To pray for my future husband everyday, to discover ways to encourage men and be a loving wife when that day comes. I've learned that I need to be me, I'm goofy and I don't need to lock that part of me in a box to fit with someone. I am exactly the way God made me and I should be myself.
The biggest lesson learned. The biggest argument someone might raise is "Well you shouldn't want to do all those things for SOMEONE, you should want to do them for THE ONE. To draw close to God...because He is the Lord, not because of some guy". I know. I get it. The biggest lesson is that I should crave, pray that I have the strength, to do the right thing and be a loving Christian for Jesus solely because I love Jesus, EVERYTHING should be for Him, and His Word promises that He will give me the desires of my heart.
I do wish this Tim Tebow character was just Joe Schmo down the street. :/
So Mr.Tebow. I will probably never meet you, but my brother, I will see you in Heaven one day, and I thank you. Thank you for being a rolemodel to so many, and thank you for unknowingly helping God teach me an invaluable lesson.
And that my dear friends, is how a silly crush on a football celebrity turned into a devotional for me.
